My title says it all. I love the moments in my life where God makes Himself so evidently clear. I wasn’t sure what college I was going to go to actually I did, my plan was to go to Palm Beach Atlantic University and go to there because my brother went there and also because it was right by the coast! So my life would consist of school, study, and beach yeah that’s just what I needed more like ..school and beach lol. Anyways that was MY plan for college not God’s He had a way better one ..as always So I go to Vida Nueva which I think I talked about but maybe not anyways it’s a weekend retreat for girls and guys but on seperate weekends of course and you pretty much get closer to God and get pampered the entire weekend there is more to it ..but just read the blog on my myspace anyways God totally reveled Himself to me and what He wanted to do with my life. My mom had mentioned Southeastern University before but I really didn’t care about it because that’s not I wanted to do. So at VN that’s where He told me He wanted me to go! I was totally stoked because it just felt so right and I knew people who went there So we went to lakeland to check it out and everything and it was amazing! I immediately felt God’s presence, I got chill bumps the school was absolutely beautiful it was surrounded by two awesome lakes. God knew as long as I was by water it’s all good. I had no idea that I would be looking at my  new home for the next four years.  So January 31 I sent my application to Southeastern University. Through the months I was trusting God to follow through but my faith was hanging on a thread it’s been almost two months and extremely anixous because I haven’t heard anything from the college and this was the only college I applied to so I didn’t know what I do if I didn’t get in and I didn’t want to do HCC like everybody else.  So March 12, 2007 I got my ACCEPTANCE letter from Southeastern University!!!!! I was estatic!!!!!!! I immediately screamed and jumped up and down like a crazay fool. I was really happy because I have been struggling with faith and trusting God. But as you can see God does follow through! Even though my faith was kinda hanging on a string I still kept it alive! Don’t ever give it up because God never does, He has a way of working things out.  Hope this brings encouragement an a smile to you!

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- the soon to be college kid

Those who know your name trust in you,for you, O Lord, do not abandon those who search for you- Pslam 9:10

So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you!- Hebrews 10:35

Rainy Nights make me think, it makes me want to write and get out my thoughts. Right now all I can say is perfect timing. Outside my window I can see the clouds getting darker and he wind blowing just a bit harder. I love to watch it rain or just plain storm, it just makes me think. Tonight as I sit here, I’m thinking to myself what am I going to after it’s done? What’s next in life for me? What does God have enstore for my life? I’m actaully quite scared. I have no idea what I want to do. All this time through Iv’e been told what to do about school. I need this and that to graduate. Make sure you did the ACT. Start applying now because it may be too late, later on. Don’t get me wrong, I do have time for things that I want to do,people do ask me what I want. But really that was in highschool and I’m still in highschool (senior !!! But Iv’e been thinking ..oh my gosh! after this i’m done! Which it scares me because that means that I’ll have to make decisions on my own, I do that now. I’m talking about my career what I want to do with the rest of my life.

Other the other side, It also got me thinking. Did I do my best? Did I take all the knowledge that was given to me and use it to the best of my ability? Will colleges find me acceptable? I am I ready for this “new chapter” of my life? Maybe I am thinking to far ahead of myself. Tonight just got me thinking hard about this subject for some reason.

In the end. The best way I deal with this is give it to the one that knows the plans of my life. Plans to prosper me and give me hope of a bright and wonderful future. The one that knows my hopes, dreams, thoughts and desires. The one that when I fall he is right there to pick me up, he gives me unfailing love, unconditional mercy and forgiveness. The one who gives me a peace in my soul that words can not describe. God.

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jules

When I see all the creation around me I always think of God and how much I enjoy the simple things out of life. It’s funny how my life can be so crazy and complex all the time but when I stop and think to myself about the simple things in life like the soft breeze in the air, the flowers, the white fluffy clouds over my head or it might be even the roar of the thunder or maybe it’s the sound of the wind chimes that gets me. My point is when I stop to think about all those things or even when I see them my life seems to be on hold. Here are some pictures that take me to that place.

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I feel defeated. Not all the time. I feel like the harder I try the more I feel defeated. Im giving it my best.

I looked up the definition of defeated and i got defeated:beaten or overcome; not victorious

That's how I feel alright. Whatever I do..

It's not enough it seems like. Ever felt like that? Or maybe it's just me.

It may seem silly but iv'e been driving like crazy so I can get my license by the end of this month. I know I finally set a goal for myself. So I do feel accomplished there.

Iv'e always had a fear of my mom's car. Don't ask me why because I don't even know. Partly because it's huge. A GMC 2004 Yukon. And Im a lil fly ..lol …5"2 …short..lol..and that's a big car so yeah. But I did finally did get over that fear.

So now I am driving. Every chance I get. It's awesome. But whenever I get done with driving to wherever, I feel defeated. My mom is just correcting me in my minor mishaps.

Maybe I take it to personally. I know she's just trying to help me and everything. But I feel a lot of pressure. Im a short little thing and that car is huge. I have a really hard time parking that thing.

Anyways hopefully it will get better. Hopefully I will have my license by the end of this month and maybe a car. =)

Keep me in your prayers.

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the NOT wreckless driver

I love that title, partly because I do it all the time. =) One of my many quirks. Don't you love the feeling when you talk things out with someone you love and trust? I do. A lot, a lot. It brings a lot of clarity to me. I hate when you live with regret. Today when I was talking to one of my dearest friends about something that happened the last couple of months during the school year. When she was in highschool she had similar situations like the one I had. So it was pretty neat and made easy, because she understood me. Lately I have been beating myself up with this regret I have. Not like everyday. I don't dwell on stuff like that. I do eventually let go. But then again there are always those times where you do think about the moments you had with that person. Even though I didn't give myself physically to him, I did give him some of me emotionally. The conversations we had were not really deep but meaningful. So I regret doing that, because it turned out that he was a big stupidface. When I was telling all this she told me to not let Satan do this to me. I mean yeah you will have some regrets and yes it is easy for you to dwell on them. But there is a time where you learn to let go. I guess it was more of an experience than regret. Anyways I relized that it was over and I needed to move on. But still here comes Satan again, saying all those lies. That I was stupid for even going for a guy like that and that it was a dumb move. I think it's weird how easily we fall for those dumb stupid lies Satan gives us. It takes so little for us to feel defeated especially by him. I hate it but we all deal with it. But here's the greatest part. Yeah we may fall for the little "satan moments" aka the lies. I'll admit I do. If you focus on God during those times you have no idea how much easier it is. I immediately feel "satan free". I feel as if the tables turn. Now Satan is the one being defeated. Anyways back to the experience vs. regret. It made it an experience because Iv'e never been through any of that with a guy. The regret part was definately the things I told him, they weren't really personal just some good conversations and I could trust him so that's why I say I gave him an emotional side of me. Make sense? So the best way a cope with this is to put my nose in the good book. And here's what I found.

Ephesians 6:11

So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way.

James 4:7-10

So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
1 Peter 5:8-11

Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You're not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It's the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won't last forever. It won't be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, he does.
those made my day.

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